Chambers Of Our Heart.

It's funny how people can love more than one person at a time...    
So after a bad heartbreak, I thought my heart would never work again, thought I was incapable of feeling the warmth of love anymore. This happens every freaking time after every freaking heartbreak that I have, thought the same the first time, the second time, now I have just stopped keeping track.
The last one was ofcourse the mozt intense one, I was in it too deep and I hit the bottom too hard. I would break down every ten minutes when I was freshly out of it. I managed to handle work atbthat point but it was pretty hard, it was super hard cor m to hold back my sobs in middle of sessions! (All the sad songs I recorded in that period came out REALLY well though. :p)
My mom is my best friend, has always been... I really am very lucky to have a mom whom I can share my worst deeds with. She was there to support me but in the end it was me who had to understand the situation and accept it.
But then again after a while when I was still mending my heart, I did like someone... not like at the first sight but eventually. Found out that he's a good soul. Now I firmly believe that if you ever find a good soul (extremely rare), you keep them around you...it's only goin to make your life brighter and lighter. I was more than happy to know that my heart still works, I was still capable of feeling love. phew!!! I was actually scared that I was going to turn into a robot or something...
But ofcourse, people like me can only enjoy peace of mind and heart for a certain short amount of time, therefore, enter the devil, my heart...again!!! By then I started realizing that I wasn't over the last person yet...but I liked this new guy too. Now tell me, why should my heart play such games with me? It's extremely confusing and utterly irritating!!!
Took me queit a while to actually finally get over the person I was suppose to get over and find a bit of peace of mind in liking one person romantically. But that doesn't mean I don't love the guy I use to love before, I still do in a very general way and would still rush to help anytime.
So first part sorted, coming to the second part, when you like someone a lot and that feeling's constant, then after a while this whole chapter somehow mixses in with your life in a way that this feeling becomes very natural and general...the excitement fades away a bit. So... coming to the problem, well, I wouldn't call this a problem but just a deep realization and maturity.
If a person is not yours to take, there is nothing in the world that you can do about it. That is if you don't have pure evil in you. :p (I'd never do something too bad.)
So now this person tells me that he has to be away for a long while, and I understand. What I respect is the honesty here. He doesn't expect me wait...(yes...I do feel like banging my head on the wall) and wants me to move on...
Just to be clear, this is the personal front I am talking about, professionally work's great. So I start concentrating JUST on my work for a while... but again the same line I used before can be used again! I met another good soul...the crazy thing is that he's crazy about me too!!! The fucked up part is that we both are somewhere stuck with commitments and I guess he's just not mine to take...but that does't change what's in my heart... (quote "him" - 'Life is cruel.')